Two Posts

So these are a few things that I typed out some time ago on my phone, thinking that I would post them soon. Kinda late now but here are the two posts:

1) I'm Beautiful

I'm reading this book Eva Luna. Had bought it because I thought I should read some classics and this one was based in Argentina ( Deep down, am fascinated by South America, maybe because I know so little of this continent). The protagonist is this girl who decides at 17
that she is beautiful- for the simple reason that she wanted to be. I'm inspired. Its this inner confidence which we all question. We all look for acceptance. For social gratification. For our egos to be soothed.
Won't it be so much simpler to say I'm beautiful.
Anyway we all seek happiness in life. Right?


2) Night Lights and other thoughts

I stepped out for a few moments tonight to close the door and feel the chill of the dark moonless night. At first I was quite blind and then my eyes found the colours of the night. The orange of the horizon that seems to absorb all the cities light, the green and red and blue twinkling of the stars. The dark silhouette of the tree from a distant street light. The many shades of the night so similar and yet so distinctly different. I think a night is but a shade of black. Always there to swallow any darkness around.

Take Care

Tonight

So I'm sitting on the roof tonight. Its been twenty mins since the date changed. The moon is so bright that I can almost feel the rays on me. And I can't help but hear the sounds of the night.

The barks of a thousand dogs. The chirping of the crickets. The whizz of the far away automobile. The cry of a bird who seems to have had a bad dream. The flapping of the wings of the bat that just flew overhead. The buzz of the mosquito near my ear. The sound of my fingers scratching the mosquito bite on my ankle. The cool gentle breeze across my face. The rustling of leaves of the tree close by. My breath as I sigh and the thoughts in my head as I write.

These are the sounds tonight.
Take care.

Diwali

I am really trying hard to start writing this post and not make it sound like an essay which all of us have written at one point of time in school. You know the whole, the coming home of Ram and the Nirvana for Lord Mahavir, and Laxmi Pooja and Kali pooja and some more thing I can't enumerate right now. But for me Diwali is all about the little things.

I love waking up in the morning on Diwali day buying garlands of marigold on the way back from the temple. Then spending the morning putting up these flowers all around the house. Then there is the Rangoli which mom usually ends up making but where I butt in putting my touches here and there. The casual lunch that we have with something simple but what we all like a lot.

But its evening what I really wait for, when we all spend time filling up what seem like countless number of diyas with oil. And as it starts getting dark outside, we light those up and there is this heat they emit and the smell of oil. Then the hour that we spend keeping them all around the house. I like the smell of burning crackers that fill the air as the night goes by. And then the refilling of the diyas when the oil seems to be ending. I like the lights and the sparkles in the sky. I like how everything looks and clean and then the roads become littered with the cracker paper at the end. I like the sweets and the chaat. I like how its a little cold(at least in the north) and how the lights bring a little warmth.

I like how all the roads seem to shine and all the shops are well lit. I like the few days around this time when everything seems to wake up at night and make things shine.

I really like how Diwali make this whole country bright for at least that night. Its just Diwali and I look forward to this one.

Hope you have a blast.

Take Care

Status Message

Most of us read too much in a status message. I am sure we spend at least 5 minutes of our day, reading what people on our Gtalk list (and whatever else) have to say about themselves, their lives and their thoughts.

We think a lot about what our status message should be for the day. Some of us are witty and come up with something which brings a smile to the readers face. Quite a few decide to copy a quote or a saying. Then there are a few who actually tell everyone what they are really up to.

I think status messages are banners, almost screaming out in pin drop silence. They are a window to what you want to show the world about yourself. But the only problem is like House says, Everybody lies. OK not really lies, but why would you want to tell the world that you are so really want to kill the guy next door cause he is really driving you nuts, so your message reads instead 'To Kill a Mocking Bird'. We like sounding smart and well read.

I just got asked what the smiley on my status message meant. I guess a just did not want to be left with busy or available, but that's never an acceptable answer.

I love reading status messages. And I think they are a beautiful window into somebodies mind.

I wish I wasn't always expected to keep the window open.

Take Care

Day 4

These days my evenings are quite occupied by the CWG. Here is what I have liked the most till now:

i) The Bodhi Tree in the CWG opening ceremony
ii) The constantly changing games on Doordarshan. I mean, you can see Badminton, boxing , weightlifting, TT, Lawn Ball all in the same hour.
iii) Real fun advertisements, like the देश का मेल भरतीय रेल ad, रूपया बोलता है ad by RBI and some national integrity ads by the govt.
iv) Standing up for the national anthem, a little too many time. ;)
v) The way soldiers march the winners to the podium for the medal ceremony
vi) Smiles on winning
vii) Smiles on losing a well fought game.
viii) Smiles of relief
ix) Smiles after a long rally
x) Smiles of people in the crowd
xi) Missing Delhi
xii) Indian Flags in different shades :P

These are just a few that I thought I'd share
Happy CWG!
Take Care

Chaos Theory

Feeling a little patriotic today.

I often wonder, if not Indian, which nation would I like to belong to. I have really thought about it. But it is one of the many questions I have no answer to. (If you have read my blog a little you will realise that I have many questions unanswered and its these questions that define me)

There are many things I like about India(supposedly the land where Indus flows (another of my many regrets, India and Pakistan not being one nation)) , but what I love most is the utter chaos. The utter chaos in which I find inner peace and belonging.

Chaos drives me forward. It urges me to find answers. It propels me to find reasons and gives me a direction from the many directions to choose from.

Being from a land of more than a billion, there is a lot to be achieved(And I don't really need to point that out). But I hope we never really lose the chaos that defines our country and makes it so lovable. I am sure it is this chaos that drives almost everyone in the country to do what they do (just the way it drives me).

Chaos makes us uniquely Indian, branding India as the Fastest growing Free market democracy.

Chaos makes us Incredible India.

Take Care

Lost

I dunno what I am writing about. I dunno what I am writing for.

To be or not to be seems so apt today.

I am. What am I? What are you? Are you there or not? Am I here or not? To be or not to be.

I know I sound stupid right now. But I am what I am.

I am lost or just unaware of where I want to be?

Questions, those unending questions.....

Do I really need to know their answers? Is there truth?

Why? What? Where?

Take care